It has been two days now....

and my heart grows heavier with each passing day.
Yesterday, I sat in my office, a room that was decorated with a Black Lab theme... it has photos of Dallas, paintings of Labs on the walls, and ceramic busts and statues of Labs. it was my shrine to Dallas that was created when we moved here 5 years ago.
I sat at my desk thinking of the memories of my time with Dallas. I have a lock of her hair in a bag, I took out the hair to feel it, to smell her scent on it, desperately try to bring her closer to me. 
Tomorrow I go to pick up her remains... I am anxious to bring her home to be close to her, but it is going to be so hard to see only her ashes and not her wagging tail and big brown eyes. I miss her so much...